Well, I guess it's time to say something. I decided that since you guys really love me alot and would die if I left I decided that won't leave xanga!!!!! so yeah, you guys better being *jumping for joy* and if not I won't know so it doesn't matter.

Well I've been sick. My mom thinks I had Pneomonia. But now I'm getter better!!!!! YEAH!!!

Saturday is my birthday..!! I'll be 16! ok...I'm not really excited, I really don't care about it at all. this is why, I love New Life church. I love it so much. it's like home to me now. I know Kati, you can't believe it. but it is. and you know my reasons why! yes Bykota is still my *home* church and in Cambodia New Life is my church too. I love New Life. Yes sometimes I don't agree or like how they handle situations but I get over that. like that bible says in romans 11 don't submit your self to the problems on this earth but submit your self to me and my kingdom. so back to the birthday subject, I told my mom that for my birthday I want us to go to New life for church and then go out to eat. she said no to going out to eat because of money isues.  and no to New Life because she knows dad will say no to that. and this is what's making me upset. If they move to another church I will go with them only until I join the New Life worship team, then after that I'm at New Life and only visiting the other church.

Kati I don't see what makes you like the other church so much. the reason to go to church is to fellowship with other christians not to be preached to. time that you spend alone with God is what brings you closer to him. isn't it Kati? Yes I'm talking to you alot that's because I really need to talk to you but you never give me the chance to talk when we are together.

well, how are things people? I'm going to leave xanga....can any one tell me how to delete me and such? love to you all,

 

Danielle :)

In a nightmare,

You know that feeling that you get when you like someone and have no idea if they like you back? And you know that feeling when you find out if they like you back or not?  You know that feeling that you get when someone walks in the room and you have feelings for them? Your heart starts beating fast, your knees start to shake, your palms start to sweat, you feel like you could fly so high in the sky. You know that feeling when you can just stare into someone’s eyes for hours and feel like you were just for a few second? You know that feeling when you like someone so much no matter what they say to you or about you; you’re still able to smile and laugh? You know that feeling after you do something and thought it was the right thing at the right time but actually later you reflect and want to jump off a cliff for what you did or said? You know that feeling when you think you can spend the rest of your life with someone then you wake up in reality? You know that feeling when you feel like you can spend your whole day holding someone’s hand but they don’t want to do the same? You know that feeling when you talk and talk about someone then someone tells you that they don’t think he likes you? You know that feeling when someone tells you that they are sure the guy likes you but then you find out the guy hates your guts? Well, I just experienced all these feelings. And it hurts. Oh….it hurts so bad!!!! I feel like I could cry a whole ocean full of tears. Do your best not to get these feelings, because at the end you’ll feel horrible. You’ll feel like me, and it hurts like someone took my heart, stabbed a knife in it, then broke it into pieces.   

But…

If you do experience these problems there’s a way out. Away through Jesus Christ. This last week God has been working in me a lot to watch my actions and learn from his example. He also has showed that he can heal the hurt, save the lost, and love on the unloved. I felt so bad but God has turned me around. I don’t need to be caught up in these worldly problems but I should fight for what I can’t see. And that’s eternal life. God has the power to heal, he healed my wounds…I am now dancing in the river of Gods love and man does it feel good!! I never had so much passion for my God…I’ve never experienced something like this. Every moment I get I just want to spend it with God. God has given me this life not to get caught up in these worldly problems but to do his will. He put me on this earth to help people know Jesus as their Lord and savior, and he put these mountains (problems) in my life so I would look up and remember to live for God today!!! God does give you joy and everything you want if you just ask. If you don’t ask you’ll never get. Believe in the Lord and you can have this much energy and excitement even when you are facing a hard time in life. You need to remember that God is our stronghold and we should hold on strong to him, and grow closer to him, instead of growing closer to problems on this earth.

Danielle J

hello!! well today has been fun. Taught english then this aftternoon went to the hair salon and got high lights and a cut! I love it. one of the people in my family say it makes my face look skinny the other one thinks I need to curl it diferently and the other think it looks swell. now I think swell is a funny word. I don't know why so don't ask. but I do. tonight I am working with my family on stuff. I better go now. love to all.